those incessant feelings
Feb. 10th, 2022 04:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
propheteli'd wager i spend at least 90% of my time in a GI shift, even if mild, but it doesn't always grip me like it has the past couple weeks.
it's been intense. i've had a few revelations, not always pleasant (but often not unexpected). the emotions are overwhelming. sometimes it's a warm, content feeling, a happy nostalgia; other times its a deep melancholy, a longing i just can't fulfull; sometimes its enough fear or anger to make me tremble; sometimes i just feel tired.
but overall...it hasn't been bad. i've felt more in touch with myself than i have in months, and i've been able to fill in gaps that have been hanging empty for far too long. so for that, at least, i'm thankful.
it's been intense. i've had a few revelations, not always pleasant (but often not unexpected). the emotions are overwhelming. sometimes it's a warm, content feeling, a happy nostalgia; other times its a deep melancholy, a longing i just can't fulfull; sometimes its enough fear or anger to make me tremble; sometimes i just feel tired.
but overall...it hasn't been bad. i've felt more in touch with myself than i have in months, and i've been able to fill in gaps that have been hanging empty for far too long. so for that, at least, i'm thankful.
